(Sorry pictures only taken with my MIND)
Do you ever have moments where you think. THIS has the potential for a great beautiful amazing moment. Then you think. This is something Kelle Hampton would write about beautifully. I would swoon at her words.
Reality is not like you imagine.
My little man was tired. Grumpy. He was put off to bed, but that turned into a bit of a moment.
In the end with a trashed bedroom (picture not being able to see the carpet, every book, shoe and toy out of place). I ended up sitting on his bed with him just in undies because it is too hot to sleep with anything more at the moment. He is curled up on my knee snuggle into me, curled right into me. Sucking his thumb, I can rub his back, play with his fingers and kiss his face.
I can look down and see his big 5yr old eyes starting into mine. His lashes look so sweet from this angle. I adore him. I breathe deep and want to remember how he feels cuddling me. How he smells (that sounds creepier maybe than it actually is).
I start to rock him and he stays so quiet, so calm, I know he is tired. Getting him this still doesn't happen often. I think. I will just rock him until he sleeps. So I rock, he snuggles. Its so hot in his room. The radio is on too loud in the kitchen. But I didn't plan this moment and I don't want to move him.
So I rock back and forward. I snuggle him. I look at his lashes and deep into his eyes.
I wish I had my phone on me to snap a pic. Then I think. STUPID. Just enjoy it.
The days are long, but the years are short.
So as I start to sweat because DUDE it is HOT. I rock. I think man oh man will he ever sleep.
It has probably only been 10-15 minutes but it felt like 40. I am sweating, hot, stuffy, needing a glass of water and a bathroom break.
I want to rock him to sleep. I probably never will get this chance again.
Well its not likely to happen often.
I throw in the towel.
I snuggle him gently into bed.
I kiss his sweet face.
I tell him I love him.
That tomorrow we will clean that room.
I slip out.
He is asleep not long later.
Maybe I didn't get to rock him to sleep.
But those 15minutes were worth it.